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… They never start a story that way. If they did, more people may see marriage as a significant emotional risk and actually give it a lot of thought and investment. Divorce lawyers would be few and far between.

I thought love was supposed to be magical, exciting, wayward, honest, raw, enduring, hard, persevering … Oh yeah and I was totally invested in the whole until death do you part.

When I see this picture, it reaches through me and pull out the most tender part of my soul. Love is like looking at amber leaves as they fall all around you and if you stand ever so still, time will brush by your cheek like the soft waves in the canals. I see this picture and I am reminded that there are fairytales…

They are just dreams for some and far away realities for other.

It seems so cruel, life and its introspective journey. To be told these tales of love, but never witness it whole, to love with all your heart and awake to a nightmare, chaos and to pick your heart up after it shatters
Into
A
Million
Shards of
Broken glass.

I swept mine into a pine box, never to see amber leaves again.

Happily Never After.

So I’m getting a divorce. …and we will leave it at that for details. LOL!  Yet, I found myself back tracking over my entire life. Then with some stellar counseling and some awesome friends I am encouraged to know that you cannot change the past and we don’t know much about life until we live it…. so focus on the future and keep on living.  I woke up today with that on my mind and things seem to click. I seemed to feel better about all that was around me because I’m actually a pretty lucky girl. I have an awesome daughter, fabulous friends, dynamic family, gainfully employed and I can PIN like nobody’s business. Life is good.

So yes, we get knocked down with twist and turns, bumps and bruises…. but you had no idea it was coming and now that you’ve over the hump… keep living.